It's been a day of talking about loss. Not intentionally. I haven't been doing any charity training or meetings - it's been random conversations with others where they have talked about their grief as part of a 'normal' conversation. That doesn't happen very often but what struck me was the apologetic nature of their opening … Continue reading Grief isn’t a competition
Bad day I guess. But as bad days go it did edge towards the 'ok' side of bad rather than the dark side of bad - so still steps forward. I do think that you 'choose your attitude' and that can reflect how you approach your day. That doesn't mean that I set out to … Continue reading Letting the sky reflect the mood
So doing things differently can get confusing! I'm a black coffee person - five cups a day maybe. It keeps me awake, helps me juggle the many things going on in any one day and I guess having a mug of coffee in my hands is a bit like a security blanket for me - … Continue reading Green Tea, Coffee or Hot Chocolate?
I took my daughter back to Uni today. I've never been very good at the separation stuff, even more so after losing Elliot. I find it hard, I worry, I miss her but I am also incredibly proud of her. Emily was the one who went to wake Elliot up from his sleep, she found … Continue reading Pancakes and Pride
I'm not thinking of a warm Barbados beach, New York or a mountain retreat. Right now I'm thinking - here at home as I am, sorting the out of date food in the depth of the freezer or would I rather be stood on a cold, rainy football touchline watching a game. It hurts. I … Continue reading Where would I rather be?
I don't know why but the sky fascinates me. As a child I could get lost for ages just making up imaginary animals with the shapes of the clouds. I've always loved just staring at the stars, watching for shooting stars. Some of my best memories - times that have just taken you straight into … Continue reading Finding the gaps in the Clouds
I said I'd give myself a month of writing. I'm not always good at sticking with things. Guess I get impatient and want instant results. Although I'm not sure what I was expecting to be a 'result' from writing this blog. I guess I was trying to meet a need to let words out and … Continue reading Doubts, fears and a hint of hope