Not sure what I am to myself - moments in recent days when I think I'm starting to get the hang of this looking after yourself and not getting wrapped up in your own negative thoughts. I was early this morning taking the dog for a walk and I realised all I could hear was … Continue reading Best friend or worst enemy?
I hate being given a label - put in a box. I guess I am replacing one label 'depressed' for another 'grieving' - but grieving for me, relates to something actual that happened that in turn has caused a whole range of devastating emotions and feelings. That doesn't mean that things that happen don't cause … Continue reading I’m not depressed, I’m grieving
It's been a day of talking about loss. Not intentionally. I haven't been doing any charity training or meetings - it's been random conversations with others where they have talked about their grief as part of a 'normal' conversation. That doesn't happen very often but what struck me was the apologetic nature of their opening … Continue reading Grief isn’t a competition
I'm not thinking of a warm Barbados beach, New York or a mountain retreat. Right now I'm thinking - here at home as I am, sorting the out of date food in the depth of the freezer or would I rather be stood on a cold, rainy football touchline watching a game. It hurts. I … Continue reading Where would I rather be?
I said I'd give myself a month of writing. I'm not always good at sticking with things. Guess I get impatient and want instant results. Although I'm not sure what I was expecting to be a 'result' from writing this blog. I guess I was trying to meet a need to let words out and … Continue reading Doubts, fears and a hint of hope
Hi, I'm new to this. Not really sure where the start is. I do know that writing helps me and as I start out on a new stage of my journey in life - with loads of doubts, fears and uncertainty - I am desperate to keep hold of some tiny new found hope. So … Continue reading Where to start?